Home alone...:)

I am home alone... quiet dun let my boss know...shhh...

yes, office is my second home. right now everyone is out.. and i am alone...

enjoying my personal time, with music and internet....

What a wonderful world... shhh... dun tell my boss about this blog...

keep it to yourself, ok??

;)

How are you, derrick?

I am good, how are you?

It has been almost a year since i last blog... Life still goes on..

People that knows me, know that i like to explore hobbies and learn new "craft/skill". From early years of roller blading, tarot card reading, meditating, workout to recent baking... I want to fill my days with interesting stuffs..

Baking is fun but not that good to my health as i shouldnt take in too much plain flour & sugar. Anyway, i enjoy it... i even bought my own bread maker so that i can bake my own fresh bread and dun need to buy those commercial produced.

Work wise, Still same old company, coming to 3 years...Guess i am contented, with simple life style as long as the money is enough i guess i have nothing to complain..

Actually i just returned from a short trip. Yes, Malacca with Moon,Eugene,Jimmy and Sandy's family. A getaway is always good. Sometime i tend to think that, maybe i travelled too much when i was younger. I lose it... the excitement of travelling or the thrill of visiting new places...

I am like an old bird...tired and seeking comfort...

I have another trip in mid June. Going tioman with my brother's family and Moon.
It will be fun since Amos and Joy had grown up...:) I love them both.
Since i dun have any kids, i really adore them.

Coming Sept, i will turn 40..a big jump from the 30s straight into the...40s!!
haha...i hope life will be better for me.

Having good time...

We are having good time in office...me and my colleague, sandy. She is a close friend, sitting just beside me... we are both using iphone, so we manage to find time to play singapore mahjong through blue tooth...it was exciting and we both almost couldnt control our laughter.... just like two kids stealing candie and afraid of getting caught...

Now i am looking forward to my short trip to krabi.... courting down now....
4 more days of working....

i just hope it will not rain as much as in sg....

:)

A great toy- my new iphone

Damn cool huh ! This post is written using my iPhone.
What great toy..

Today is another wet raining day. Nice to have late wake up,
but seems that my body already custom to wake up at 8 in the morning.
I miss my younger day that I can sleep till 11... Heehee what a lazy pig..

i phone 4 mania

I queued 2 hrs for my i phone4 yesterday. Managed to sneak out of the office about lunch time and finally got it at 2pm...:P

A new toy for me... missed the last round with iphone 3G was out cos i was still holding on to my nokia E71 with contract. Actually Nokia E71 is not too bad a phone but just too small a screen to go online.... Iphone is really a cool toy huh... lots of free games and applications.. Another reasons, being i will be away next weekend...

Going to Krabi with moon. It will be more fun if i can play my iphone games when i am there holidaying...

I hope to take some cool pix and upload here, provided i am not too lazy...

Hooray! iphone4 YES!!

Losing Weight

I has been losing weight. From my usual 90kg. I am 82.9kg, weighted last night. A slimer me....well, the cause of the weight lose is due to my new found illness...

Gone to the doctor weeks ago. Found out that i am suffer from diabetes. Not a big deal in today's society but still is a change of lifestyle to me. I am now more aware of what i am eating and how much i can eat. I need to sort of give up my passion to baking too.... or maybe do some "light" baking with less sugar later on.

Been doing a lot of thinking.

Everyone will die one day. Is just the matter of how you will die. Now the answer to me....maybe of the complication to my this illness....

I am not sad, or keep asking myself " why me " but a relief... an answer to my question... I am glad that i have good friends surrounded me.

I was so touch with kat. Althought she is far away but her reply over skype really warm my heart and my eyes... i miss her dearly... cos she treat a friend with her warm heart and sincerity. I will make a trip up to KL soon! not a foodie trip now...
well, a shopping spree is still good enough to make me smile huh...:)

Been restless and cant seems to concentrate much in work. I hope it will be soon over and back to normal...

A word of advice to anyone that read this blog... dun eat too full or too much at meal... stay healthy and eat healthy! Take care...

Re: Happy in my life

I must say that, at this point of time. I am in my best. Having lived for 37 years, is now that i finally have some saving and a more stable life. I hope everyone will reach this stage sooner than me. The thing is i am not the saving type. I like to pamper myself with things i like... I should have bought my house if not because i spend so much on things that i dun need.

World peace..

Happy New Year, Sleepy head..

New year of 2009. A new begining. Every year a new year resolution. This year, I am wishing.... I want to be more active in the gym. Been a lazy pig too long. Is time to move my lazy ass to the track mill. I dun think i wanna join a marathon but just to lose some body fat and be lighted. So that i can fit into some figure hugging t-shirt or whatever, so that i am charming enough to attract some prince charming...:P

Ever since i am back to sg from beijing. Been on a long break. And i am glad that i found this new job that pay ok and give me a lot of freedom. Thanks boss.

Gone shopping last weekend, I guess it is enjoyable to do shoppin when u have some extra cash on hand. Two days of shopping left me with tiring feets. God, i think i should do more walking in the future to prevent any foot injury...:P

Wake up sleepy head!!!

Feels so sleepy now...help help....

Up up and away!!!

Up up and away!! Singapore economy is not that good lately... everyone is worry about their job and also the high living expenses. Yes, i was shocked lately by my electrical bill...gosh, it goes up to $300 plus which on average it should be about the range of $170 to $190. Anyway i am tryin to cut down my aircon timing. Which i normally on it when i reach homeat 7pm. Now i use fan and on the aircon at 10pm.

Started to play share lately too... So hope it will go up more and more!!!

Dec, holiday spirit...

So fast dec liao.... I can still remember last year, 15dec. I touch down beijing for my olympic project. What a cold cold winter to me. But overall i still miss my friend there and all good experience.

Started work in nov. Slow moving, just good for a old man like me.

Woke up at 8am and reach home at 630 or 7pm. It is really a far different from all my other job.

Enjoy life, enjoy me.

Lazy me....

Been a restless and lazy bum for weeks after my trip. Doing nothing, sleep late and wake up late... Feels worthless. I am really the type that need to work so that i feels i am alive...

Been decorating my room and i think my room are more cozy now. Hang up all the pictures that i bought long ago...:)

Been lazy too, in my mind the active me always wanna me to get up and go to gym but the other lazy me told me hey there is always tomorrow... FINALLY, yesterday, sunday afternoon, i packed my bag and i-pod, i gone for a walk in Macritchie. Done that in 2 hrs and 15 mins. now my feet still sore, reminded me to do it more often.

Realise that i can log on to my cableTv to watch those HBO movie whenever i like... so been stick to my TV a lot lately....

I did post some pictures on my facebook...so if u are my friend, please email me for adding u to my friend list...:)

World peace.

An email from Hue, Vietnam

hi all,

just reach Hue in vietnam this morning, staying in hotel which is so far the most expensive we have stay so far...USD25. Damn, but it come with hot water, air con, internet Pc in the room and a beautiful balcony.

Coming a long way from bangkok to cambodia to vietnam. I truely enjoy my long trip. We spend abt 4 days in Bangkok. It is good in shopping as usual. Food is great and people are friendly, good old bangkok.

In Cambodia we spend 3 days, we only do Siem Reap which is where Ang kor wat located. It is really cool to be really in the ruin, like u are in tomb raider the
movie with lara croft. Lot of picture taken. But after awhile all temple looks the same....:P the night life is interesting. Well, because Ang kor wat is so well known that is why they have interesting cafe good restaurant in Siem Reap. I even have a blue cheese hamburger one night for dinner.

Vietnam is a surprise to me so far. Lot of good good fun. We spend a long time in vietmam. Started from HoChiMing City. We spend abt 3 days there. Doing some site seeing and Good BBQ food there..then we bought a open bus ticket of abt USD45 that will bring u from HCM to Hanoi, with 4 stops in between. The first stop after HCM is MuiNe. A very very beautiful beach with many budget and expensive resort. The one that we stay in cost only USD16. It is really nice stay there. Will show photo later. After that we travel up to Ngn Trang and we spend 2 days there. Which we did interesting boating to 4 different islands. Lunch on the boat, swim in the ocean with floating bar and 'FREE' red wine was served. We even did a nice beauty oriented mud bath the next day. Really feel like tai-tai, as we dip ourselve in the mud tub. hmmm....then wash off then swim in the mineral water pool then massage...a nice and relaxing holiday indeed. We did a 12 hrs night bus ride to Hoi an. Which we spend a night there. Over there, they have a simple nice old town zone which looks like our old singapore port back in the 70s, but now more commercialize with many gallery and cafe. The most interesting there is a 2km bicycle ride out to the beach. A really long sandy beach which we take a lot of "artistic" pictures there. We just left Hoi an this morning and we are now in Hue. Me siting in the hotel room typing away.
No sure what we are going to do later, as we really take our time, dun plan much. We are going to Hanoi tomorrow evening at 5pm, another 16 hrs bus ride. Over there we will be doing 2 tours. One to Sapa and the other one to Halong Bay. Then we will fly back to Singapore.

So far it have been a relaxing and fun trip. I will post some picture when i got home.

Back to Singapore

Yes, lazy me! Been back to sg for almost 2 weeks and no update of any blog. Anyway, for the days that i am in sg. It has been a slow and uneven days... lots of late night(watching TV & surfing net) and wake up late (cos sleep late).

Planning on a trip with my army mate, foo. A short and suffering shoe string trip to thailand, camboria and maybe vietnam. Was trying to go as far as $2000 sin can bring us. Not really a lot of planning cos i just wanna enjoy my get away so just do one day at a time.

Also brought travel package for my mom and me. Yes, going in oct17. To somewhere... Shanghai, shouzhou and hanzhou. Yes, china again. Many asked me why. Cos i simply love it too much. Anyway the reason is the package is too good to be true. Full board with staying in 5 stars hotel. Plus i am bringing my mom so cant really travel to places that i like... Just wanna do something for her. I love her. And i wanna her to enjoy the fruit of my labour while i am still wealthy...:P

Anyway, she knocked at my door this morning at 11am. She makes milo for me... and wish me happy birthday. A red packet.... hmmm....i really forgot about it...how old am i this year? gosh...37 liao....no word...

And now i am typing away now...alone...

Happy birthday to me.

Letter of appreciation

This is an email that send to me by my Vice President, General Manager of Greater China Region....

On behalf of (XXX Management), I would like to extend my appreciation for all the hardwork in (XXX) @ Olympics 2008. You have shown great determination and "can do" attitude to overcome this challenging event. Things may have not taken off smoothly but by coming to see the final product of the showcase, indeed you have done well. Your contributions will not be forgotten.

I wish you have a great trip in China and upon your return to Singapore, do feel free to reach out to us.....I am sure we will have many opportunities in China and I am very sure your positive attitude will lead us to think of you again.

Indeed, this email makes my day.... and it almost makes me cry...:)

A good day

Monday, manage to have a good chat with my boss about my performance before i leave this friday. All and all, she thinks that i did a good job, just need to improve on some technical details etc. I am glad that my effort are not wasted.... That makes my day!

4 more days to go before I ORD. And i am really lookin forward to my Sin Jiang Trip. Oh, did i mention that i am going to Sin Jiang??

Yeah, silk road. Never really cross my mind to go there, but apparently, from my friend, that is a good place to visit as it is s different from the main land...but colleagues from here advice me otherwise.

Well, I am sure it will be a good trip for me! a well deserve trip after my long stressful working life in beijing....

:)

ExtensioN!!!

My boss told me that i need to work till end of july. Another 3 more weeks left. So no time for my korea holiday. And just now got a confirmation of my korea hotel stay. So now cannot go loh...sad sad...

Went on site just now, and my showcase really not that bad ...hmm quite impressive some more... sorry for my singaporean english, ok?? anyway, will post some photo when everything is more complete...

Pass by this restaurant yesterday evening... can u imagine what a name for a steam boadt restaurant.... must be damn LAN! :P wonder how many people wanna try it...

Wed...:)

Courting down to less than 10 days, the feeling is really good. Knowing that the suffering will not last. Makes me feels good and i am more cheerful now. Passby a travel agency last night after dinner. Saw on the ads board that from beijing going to seoul cost only 900RMB and with tax of 1200RMB, Total only 2100RMB. It really make me wanna travel there and do my R&R.

I wonder now when is my last day....I hope i can make a trip to seoul...

I love the traditional house that is on the web.

Lets see...

Food in beijing

Some yummy food for your eyes only!!!

hehehe...

Life in beijing

Time really fly. Already in china for more half a year. Weather is getting unbearable lately. I really miss post winter or singapore weather. Winter in Beijing is still too cold for me. The heat here is like baking in oven. U should really try taking train to work in beijing. It is really a eye opening experience. Today manage to get aboard only after 5 train. Really crowded. Gosh, people really body to body with all the sweat and body heat!!! But must say that there are few cute guys here and there...:P noti me...

I hope my last day is 15july. As i am really looking forward to THE day now. cross my finger now..

Yesterday, me and buddies went to hou hai for dinner, dine in this hakka restuarant. Good food and good chat! We went to a Jazz bar for a drink. Note the cute drummer....hehehe...and a full body massage follow that!....

The one thing that i will miss in beijing is the foot massage. It is really good and cheap...:(

Ma Hua, thanks for the memory

Last night, Bear bear give me a box of ma hua, he specially bought for me from Tian Jin. All the way from there, his little thought. I will miss all the good people from china. Someone like Bear bear and the girls...

Friday chatting day

Friday evening... had a good chat with my boss... he told me that i can be back to singapore in mid july, 2 weeks earlier than what i expected.Guess my salary too high:P hahaha anyway.... :) Really lookin forward to my return.

It is really a mind set problem. I should really think about what i want in my future. I should be more observant!! Should bring a camera around. Ask a lot of questions. Thanks Terence! I learn a lot from you.

Tomorrow another working day, two more weeks in beijing! Hooray

Say hello to all my friends

I must say hello to all my friend, is the msn and sms that keep me going. Telling me that there are still kind people out there that care and is my friend. I will get moon's sms almost daily if not every other day. kok Kuaung hello sms will pop once awhile. Kat's msn of that curry chicken rice will greet me and yes i am lookin forward to the KL R&R. So keep that room for me :)... Sorry mom that i dun call often, till one day i got my brother sms that hey didnt heard from u for 2 weeks. hope u are still ok....sorry hor, really beri busy.

I am lookin forward to my return, another 34 days...:)

I will miss my friend from my ex company who are station here. We often had dinner and foot massage on one of the weekend. Almost other weekend. The liang zi foot massage is good here, along jiangguomen. I will miss the foot massage. We always do the basic which cost 100RMB cos we bought the season ticket of 10. They even had the ultimate emperor package which consists of 5 person workin on u at the same time, cost 1000RMB...hmmm sounds cool right?? the ultimate treatment!

Eating here can be an adverture too. We been to the DARK restaurant, and trust me, IT IS DARK, PINCH DARK. You eat like a blind. For some food, I am not sure what i had eaten but it was quite an experience. Set me back at 138RMB. That super super spicy chicken wing, hulala.... That is really Fxxxing fire burning HOT!! is in one of the ulu lane in "ghost street". And honestly i never had so much japanese food in my life before, cos over here, i had so much of it that i feel i am almost a jap....hehehe, not quite lah but that is true...

Attached is one of my photo during my MuTianYu great wall.... Dun you miss me, cos i am so fun...:P

No balls

I can tell u, people that work in the national board have no balls...
they can't make and afraid of making decision. Two more weeks to the closing of the event. And they still cant make decision.

God bless me!!

OT again

Not again.. OT....:) another day of dinner on my table in office...I love office I love OT....

Honestly i had never Overtime ( OT ) so much in my entire life...YES! i grew to get use to working late and work over weekend. A lot of time i thank god for giving me rest day on weekend...

I switch on my laptop every morning to go to the count down page...

http://www.timeanddate.com/counters/customcounter.html?month=8&day=1&year=2008&hour=0&min=0&sec=0&p0=33

incase you guys interested to know how many more days to my home trip...hopeless, right??

Get together

last night, we had a get together curry chicken cum nasi nemak feast! WIth the singaporean group. It was quite fun as we laugh at the same joke and same wave lenght. Sex and the city till 3 am. god... one should never stay up late, as this morning i looks.....so old..:P

Meeting them for lunch, then factory outlet SHOPPING!! my life in jing cheng is getting more fun and colourful....

Another 43 days...

Wed....another 43 days to my home trip.

OT again, tired....

help...

Sky so grey!!!

Today the sky was so so grey at abt 5 pm... anyway....:)

Tomorrow is weekend...i can sleep late and wake up late...

but still i need to go office .....

my heart is grey now...

Another 48 days....

hahaha...just joking... tomorrow there is a early meeting with client.
And this is a black friday the 13th... Hope everything is ok...Good..

It will be weekend soon. Have a good rest and have fun again!!

Court down to my trip home...

Another 49 days to first of august. I am really looking forward to go home!!

There has been up and down...a lot of it...so much that i lose court...
Too much Overtime, too many weekend burn...so much till i find that the money is not worth for me to stay here...

Didn't make many friends, still hang around friends from my ex company.

Going home is good. I need some good rest.

A lot of plan to make, a few trip has being plan...

I wanna go bali cos i still got a free ticket from SQ. And also visiting kat and her new born baby. And last, maybe a long trip to NZ or US or somewhere far far away.

I am lookin at starting my new job in Nov, that means i got 3 months of R&R....

Well, that i well deserve it.

Another 49 days....

Getting busy, getting warmer

Life is getting busy lately but i am more into the job too. Which is a good thing to me, cos i was feeling so lost before. At least now i am more aware of the things that i need to do. Have a clearer mind. Which is good to me.

The weather is getting warmer too. Not as cold as before, which is great to me. As i am still not that use to the cold weather. I can now sleep naked....hehehe, dun think too much....cos i am putting on more .....weight...

No lunch for me last few days....cos busy till no lunch...:)

Now i can't wait till Olympic starts...

Horray....

Sat OT day

Was still in the daze of New year mood. But lots of meeting pull me back to reality.
Didn't really get enough sleep after i return back to beijing. As we got a new house mate. A taiwanese girl... a really interesting friendly gal that drain my energy every night.We chat till 1 or 2 midnight...hehe actually last night we even make it to a pizza dinner and a disco in san li tun....it was fun but when thought of OT on sat..........speechless

It was amazing that one of my friend told me that she only realise that i am in beijing. Through my blog... well i should be more hardworking as i will soon have a group of followers....asking for my autograph and maybe picture, i hope.....:P

Tomorrow will be my my rest day....YES can sleep till noon time!!!!

Back to Beijing!

After a good 9 days rest in singapore. I am now back to Beijing. On the very Valentine day... It will be busy busy period soon. cross my finger now.

Right now i just want to catch some sleep as i took the midnight flight and only touch down early morning 630am. Didnt sleep much so tonight i will have a very good sleep........zzzzzzzz

Welcome back to Beijing.

Snowing this morning

On a cold monday morning, when i wake up and look through the window. Everywhere is painted white. It brighten up my day. :)
Two more weeks and i will be back home for Chinese New Year. I am looking forward to it. To be able to rest and do nothing.

Re: Beijing 2 weeks

Very fast, i have already been here for 2 weeks. More or less i had settle down. TO be honest, i am actually quite enjoying the freedom and lifestyle here. I get to talk to friends and family through skype. I get to go out with my singaporean friend here for meals and outing. Which really helps in many way to kill my time here, so that i dun feel lonely here. And also DVD is really INEXPENSIVE here, i can watch my FRIENDS here. hehehe....

Christmas day, working day

Christmas day. I am working.....there is no holiday in china. What a disappointment. Dun understand why they can dun celebrate Christmas. Anyway i had a wonderful time with my friend last night.

We had Japanese food for dinner then went to a pub street for Christmas's fun. It is something fun to do while i am out of Singapore.We even have a artist to draw a portrait for us. Had a good sleep after that cos i am so so drunk.

Today, i am working....on Christmas day....what a boring day....

Christmas eve and i miss you all

Christmas eve, a day to get together. With a group of close friends. I miss those years where kat, jessie, sandy and us having christmas pot luck and gift exchange.
Those happy time. After kat gone back home, we slowly drift apart, no more mahjong and less get together. Guess is during such festive period that makes me treasure more. More of the friendship and family tie. I miss my mom, my brother, the kids and all my friends.

Alone in a foreign land really feels lonely. Doing things alone, be it having meal, shopping. No one to share, no one to laugh with.

What i can do is to concentrate more on my work. take my mind off and be happy.

Yes be happy and i miss u all.

Sleepy me

Five days at work, Realised that at 3pm..i am always sleepy...
Help!!!

Weather is not as cold as b4, maybe i am used to it somehow, of course
dun ask me to go out naked or without a coat.

Fran is in shanghai now....bet he has a relaxed holiday as dun need to work, just play...

Third day of work...

Today is my third day of work and i finally found something to eat that is more normal and easy to eat. A taiwan restaurant. Anyway, everything is ok except my throat is burning and my skin is still bad. Will do about it this coming sat. Maybe will visit a sinsei here. See how.....

Second Day of work

Today is my second day of work. Boss still out for meeting.
I still surf the net in the morning. Bored to death. HELP!

Last nite i had a better sleep compare to other nites.
Maybe i am fully prepare about the cold.

Lunch time soon...feels lonely. They are all keep to themself.
No friends, so sad.

Find it weird that i can write my blog but i can't log on to my blog to read it.
Dunno why. China seems to block all the blogger website.. well, at least ican log in to type.

So far so good...

One night in beijing, Here i come

I arrive in beijing last sat afternoon. Yes i will be working in beijing again.
This time round will be a eight months contract.
Now is winter over here and it is so cold to a tropical "boy" like me.
I realised that i didnt bring enough clothing, so on sunday i went shopping with an ex-collegue to get some winter wear.

It is so dry here, started to feel the pain in the throat and nose started to have blood clot. Asked my friend, her advice is to drink more water and eat more fruit.

My apartment in beijing is not too bad. Located just two train station away from my office. But taking the train in the morning can be quite a culture shock. It is really JAM PACK....

Today is my first day of work. Excited but worry...nothing much today, cos my creative head was out for meeting the whole day. So can only surfing net the whole day, can be quite boring.

Doing dinner can be a headache here. As i realised that the food here really not to my liking....Will see how later...maybe go subway and get some sandwiches....

Heard that it will be colder this week....oh god...

One more week to go

Last friday is my last day of my interior job. Been working there for almost 6 months. Well, i guess i am really not suitable for doing interior. Too much managing
of man power and schdule of work, that really is a headaches.

Now welcome to a new chapter in my life. Yes, i am going away soon...for a oversea posting.... YES...not easy to make up the decision. But that is the choice i make and i hope i am doing the right things...

Done a lot of shopping last two days and i have 5 more days tp rest and settle some issue for the house.

Good bye my friends.....

I wanna go holiday!!

I wanna go holiday, wanna take a break.

If u ask me where is my ideal holiday breakaway?

I will tell u first is itay second nepal third grand junction,USA

I miss those happy fun time there.
The culture, food and shopping of Itay.
The People, smile and scenic mountain view of Nepal.
My friend, skiing, christmas and lazy afternoon in grand junction,USA.

But i cant go anywhere as now is our peak period.

I wanna go holiday!!!

Something Abt me

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.5
Mind:	6
Body:	6.1
Spirit:	4.6
Friends/Family:	2.2
Love:	5.7
Finance:	7.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. Your body score is fairly average, which means there is room for improvement. Keep a focus on your physical health. Protect your body as it is your most valuable physical asset. Nutrition, stress reduction, and exercise are key. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. You seem to be lacking in spirit. Improve your score by refining your beliefs and searching for answers to philosophical questions. Consider new belief systems if your current beliefs are not rewarding you. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.

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Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is fairly average. Things could be worse, and thankfully they aren't. But you must work to improve this area, turn an average score into a great score. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.

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Let me go

Feeling tired, feeling heavy.

Dun wanna move, dun wanna get up from my bed.

Cos, i know there will be one phone call that will spoilt my day.

I dun understand, I dun know how.

Dun take it personal, just let it go.

One ear in, the other ear out...

It is easy say than done.

Why treat others like dirt? feeling unsecure? maybe so.

Do u believe in karmma?

Someday somehow, u will know.

Give me back to me...

Last night, i had a good chat with my ex-collegue. She updated me what is the latest changes in my ex company. And that really reminded me why i left. Well looking back, i gain lots of friendship there. Which is something that i miss...laughter and fun.
There is also lots of politics that i hate. Cos i am basically a very simple man that dun think that far.

I am stuck now with my current job situation. I wont say that i hate it or what. Just that it can really drain u off and make u so tired at the end of the day. Boy, is that what i want in my life.

I wonder why things around me changes. The feeling is gone. I find that i am so lost. I need time to settle down and think.

To think and have my life back...

Give me back to me...

Cannot be any worst

Yes, is true... it cannot be any worst. I am now in the most difficult time of my life. I never know that a human nature can be that nasty. Until now... I promise myself i will be strong and treat others with a kind heart. World Peace....

One week after my Birthday.....

Yes, it has been a week...after my 36th birthday. One and a half month into my new job. Something new something nice. Meeting new friends, seeing the rich.... Making less money but who cares....as long as i am happy...Am i happy?? Yes i am...

Sunday lazy day

Sunday is good to wake up late ...but gosh..it was so noisy today cos downstair, we got a traditional wedding going on and they really irritating... the music is still on till now at 3pm...

Been busy busy since i left the comapny...the air outside really fresh and nice...coffee in the morning, running around in the afternoon, work at night.. i feel that i am still kicking and alive again... dun think i wanna go back to an office again. tire myself down to a chair, sit infront of the computer and waste my life away....

GOing for diving lesson soon...trying something exciting i hope that will excite my life...

I find that it is not easy to work on laptop ....anyway i tried to work on a project just now...it really needs sometime to adjust to the keypad...

what is life?? i wonder...

Wish me luck....

Finally i am leaving my present company.... been there more than 3 yrs. Is time to move on....Guess i am the sort that need things to excite me every now and then. July5 will be my last day of work. Really feel relax and at ease after i make up my mind. Realised i am really bad at this... easily affect by others comments...Now at least everything is finalise. I am sure now i had no regret as i was given chances to re-consider. Thank god for being so kind to me. And all my colleagues and friends. A new chapter will begin and i wish for a better tomorrow.

Will be joining a friend for my new career switch. New life and jobs really excite me. I was so busy in this company but it was rewarding....i will miss all the good fun..and the OT with the few.

Take up tap dancing class...starting this tues. A 8 weeks class....Always wanted to do this cos find it real cool. Finally make it...:)

At this age ....36....really a big move for me....I really hope all work out well..
wish me luck!!

thanks all...

Funny funny

Stay late for work again. Had dinner in the office and we had some fun..
we did an out line of a human figure on the floor..so funny ...just like the CSI..
Few more days and my nightmare will be over...can't wait to go for a long break...

Sunday Working Life so sad

Today sunday, so sian cos i need to go back to work...

Meet up with eugene early morning...nice guy:)

I think i really need a break...so sian in life...

Really lookin forward to my KL trip in end of the month....

Break me

Been really busy with office work lately, that tender is so rush and i was given three area to do...anyway it is coming to an end soon...god blessed...

A lot of thing happened for the past few months and it really bothers me. I changes my way of viewing friendship and i hate what it had done to me. Whether to trust a friend or not, who is the real friend that stand by u and who is the one that use u for a motive. Maybe friendship only happen outside the office, too much politic and i hate that. People that seems nice to u maybe throwing a knife behind u. god..

Get in touch with KK lately...my ex. He is still a kind soul. Still care about me and i am glad that i can talk to him abt my problems.

Fran and i seems to be more and more distant in our relationship. One thing really is i am really too busy at work and my ECA over the weekend. I wish to have some free time to breath and spend some quality time together with him. We are going for a short trip to KL end of this month. To relax, do some shopping and also visit Kat..
my long forgotten friend...hehehe..

I simply love my this new laptop. It is the coolest toy at this moment. But i really dun have much time with him...that is why now at 2 am, i am using him to write my long forgotten blog.

Tomorrow, sunday still need to go back office attend to that stupid tender drawing. I am truely tired!! i need a break now!!!

happy me?

Finally back to blog again...

bought a new laptop and hp...:)

happy me!

Monday Monday

Another Monday.... There is 52 weeks in a year...that means there are 52 monday...Sian..

Why can't we have 3 weekends and 4 weekdays? Wonder who set the rule of work 5 days and rest 2 days.... Must really kill him... Anyway he is dead many many many months ago... I strongly believe we should lead a simple and stressless life. Living in Singapore really dun allow us to have this luxury...everything cost money, money, money...

Travelling around the world really make me appreciate this little island.. everything is green, clean and organize...Although it can be boring sometime, but hey,....this is the place i called HOME...

Yes I love Singapore

My Taiwan Trip

Been bit restless...is time to go back to work? Or is it the late night mahjong? Or maybe is just the side effect of my detox proggram..

It was a good fun last night....play 1.5 round of mahjong and i won 25 sin at the end of the game.. hehe...

I have write something about my Taiwan Trip.... simple and straight forward...

This is me having FUN!! hahaha, Went to several interesting places.... As you can see... making fun by the rock, soaking in that super hot spring water, visiting the Taipei 101, Greeny Alishan and that early sun rise...

What i will miss in Taiwan...??
The FOOD!! Usually we had our meal at small eatery or but from the roadside stall...which is yummy.


So i had spend 10 days in Taiwan eating and travelling but mostly is a rest and relax trip from my busy working life....and I LOVE IT!!

Back from Taiwan....

Back from Taiwan last night...i shouldnt have take budget airline...the space is so tight and 4.5 hrs is a long way home..so next time if i travel again, i should save more money...
I have 3 days of leave before i go back to work. Decided to do a detox proggram. Weight myself last night, put on 3 kg..hmm...so is a good time to do something to myself.

Getting Away

I know i had been lazy....didnt get down to write anything in the month of august.
Well, office had been busy busy busy...but i guess life treated me well..seems to settle with my job and life...god blessed....

Yes, today is the day for me to get away...i really think i planned this trip way too far ahead...i will never do such thing again...cos all the passion and fire really wear off....should do it at a click of the finger...just do it! seeing my colleagues one by one done their japan, taiwan, hongkong and bangkok trip..and i am still workin my ass off in the office...the feeling sucks...but hey now i am good...
cos i will be away for 2 weeks...sigh...a trip well deserve..i will enjoy to the fullest and mann....no work for 2 weeks....look, heaven i come...oh oh, i will be celebrating my 36th birthday in taiwan, so cool hor..anyway not something to shout about...

Flight is at 1 pm, another 4 hrs away... lookin at my luggage ..hmmm...i guess i am not as adventure as b4...time really catch up.... decided not to bring my digital camera instead i will use my super N70 to take photos....well, anyway i am there just for food, food and food.... i will post some pic up when i return..

So have a good trip to me and have a good day to u.....

July...Soon August

July almost end...time passes so fast..i am really lookin forward to August...why?
Well, cos Singapore National day fall on 9 Aug, is a Wednesday. And i apply my annual leave on the 7 and 8 aug...that means i will have 5 days off from work.. hooray!!!

What's more, fran will be away, with his family to bali...so i will be alone!! hooray
...hahaha...i need to fill my days with fun and activities mann... actually should do some planning abt my taiwan trip or go to gym etc.... lucky my good friend kat is back from KL...so we can spend some time together if she is free...

We really tired ourselve out last night....cos sandy's place can only be free after 9 pm and we are planning to do our mahjong session there. End up we go to IKEA for some shopping and also kill time... and only manage to reach her place at 10 plus.. two rounds of game and is 6 am!! i only managed to win $12 sin... hahaha so tired and only win so little hor... but is really good fun...

I waked up at 2 plus today... so restless...did some house work..cos my mom dun really a cleaning lady type so i did some kitchen cleaning... called fran, kat and sandy...guess what!!!??

We going for ice-cream at NYDC later..hooray!!!

Family Day

Seems like my blog is updated only on weekend...once every week...haha...

Yesterday is our company family day at the zoo....hmmm....the zoo is not the same as i remember.. well they actually installed a few new setting and new improvement...it really bring the animal closer to the visitors. Will make a trip down again when i have time..

The zoo is fine but the family day sucks.....I was involved in the treasure hurt, we come in first place....and guess what is the prize?? Yes give me a break...merci.... No words can discribe when i got the prize....sian...

Was in MSN this morning and chat with an ex colleague... glad that we are still friends...and we share a lot of our office talk. Sigh...a lot of untruth and polictic.... i hope i can stay clean and not get into such difficult situation... Even there is talk abt my boss and me, god...is funny and is ...funny

Tomorrow another day at work....i love weekend but seems that it always passed so fast... Fran and me gone to chomp chomp and take away pizza and fried prawn noodle..it is really good....

A cow Jumpin' over my car

I pasted this cow sticker over Fran car few weeks ago...Last week while we were on our way to Suntec for some walk walk...i looked up and saw THE COW.. it was so funny and that i decided to use my nokia ...hehe...

That night was also my first time trying our the Carl Jr burger.... It really is big and really ex...cos us $14 plus for just one mushroom burger set which include one drink, one fries and one onion rings..... well Fran and i fully agree that Carl burger is good...so give it a try if u are hungry and saw one nearby...

Today Fran got his new car...yeah after so many months of waiting...we went for dinner with his new toy..not bad with the smell of new leather...:) will show u pic of his car when time are right...just now too late and no light for good photo...

This is cute, saw this while on our way out from a meeting...it was paste beside the lift...encourage people not to take lift and spend some time for little step fun...well 20 steps a day to keep 2.7 kg away....i think that is possible ...if u do it for a year and stop eating...hehehe..

Sleepy now ...have a good weekend...

Weekend !!!

Coming to weekend again! So nice to be able to
get away from work...

Realised that even though with my new nokia Hp i didnt really take a lot of photo...
anyway, this is what i take on my way to work this morning..Lovely view hor..:)

U will never believe it...our office's family day...will be held at the zoo...gosh..although i know singapore zoo is the best beside that night safari in taiping....ha...but i been there a few time lately...cos Fran can get his company co-operated card to get us in for free....

How I wish it was like last year which i had miss it, cos of an oversea assignment... they went to wild wild wet, a water theme park in singapore...
:( I always wanna go but i find the fare a bit ex...

Finally got a reply from Kat, friend that gone home for good... so nice to be able to get in touch again.. Now no more mahjong cos everyone is busy... And Fran don't really like me to play..cos he don't gamble and i always wanna him to stay with me when i am gaming...haha

I am sure we will make a trip up north again...not this year i am sure, most likely after chinese new year ...

Oh another update!...I won $75 on top of my $50 bet from my office world cup betting! haha that is a piece of good new huh...

More fun to come....

Hey man...is so good to sit here now in my air-con room, typing away. My latest nighmare has over. The best of all is we did a good job, as far as what i can see.

A last minute planning formed yesterday! A trip, yes...a long trip to taiwan. 10 days.... is so good to have something to look forward to..there is a lot of planning involve and i am sure we will have lot of fun then...Oh yes...we are going in early sept...will celebrate my birthday there ...so cool hor...

A lot of event will be taking place second half of the year....life is so exciting now...hahaha...

I am in NIGHTMARE

June almost end, how i wish July is tomorrow...that is because my tender date for the project i am workin on is the last day of June!!! Really a nightmare... hate it!

I will be going to Hong Kong Mid of Oct to Mid of Dec...yeah finally the date is set.
Now...should i stay there till christmas or new year?? But i am sure i will miss home by then..Fran said he will come over and visit me ...but i will miss him for sure...

Coming Oct is our 3 year anniversary...been a while....we more or less settle down...
but still a lot to compromise... anyway we will work things out...that is life...

Working in a big company is really helps tp grow one person.... I truely think that i improve and strenghten my design skill and ability... I hope the HK trip helps in certain way to expose my experience and horizon...

Must go find some info abt where to go in HK!!! Must prepare and have hell lot of fun there!!

Managing the expectation

I learned a new word today....which i love it...

Managing the expectation...it is a really nice way of saying that dun expect too much from me...hehe...

I really hate the project which i am workin on it now... I hope it will end soon....
god bless...

Actually thought of workin over this weekend...but damn it...i am not going to care now...wait till monday then face the music..

Finally is weekend...can rest and do nothing...:)

HAPPY WEEKEND!!

Monday Blue Love

Today is monday, blue blue monday...send my car for servicing so had to collect it after work... spend money again...i think is not easy to save ...i really had problem with it... no way in this life time to be rich...so let's be it...live a happy life and die when it is my time....


Took a bus to the service centre and pass-by orchard road, a busy shopping belt of singapore. Took a picture of the blue LOVE... I always like it when i pass by the area.

Celebrating my new HP

Finally got the N70 HP...used it to take my first pic...

U can see this is my work desk at home and my Mr Bean bear bear which fran bought for me during the last KL trip....:)

Is fun to play around the HP..so advance than my old one...just manage to set up the email in it. so i can receive email with my hp too...:)

Now can go around to shoot ...heehee


There is a press release on friday afternoon.. was wonder any of my drawing being print! I run through all the newspaper and finally saw my drawing on a local chinese newspaper..and it was quite a big print..hehee...not bad huh... I am proud of my work so far at lease i am good enough ...

Happy Me!!

Friday Sick Day

Got MC this morning..is really a bad nite last night...had to wake up very offen just to blow my nose... feels very dizzy and weak after the medication.is really a good rest after that...

Tomorrow is a good day!! I will be able to upgrade my HP then!! been eyeing at the Nokia N70 for days...finally able to get it!!! would love to take pic and post it here...The blog will be more colorful then..hehee...

So bore and come across this test...heehee...quite interesting...

Your Birthdate: September 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy. Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas. Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges. Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom Your power color: Tangerine Your power symbol: Ace Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Sick Day....

Don't feel well since last nite...very bad sore throat. Tried having Vitamin C drink but still it hurts bad in the middle of the nite... Hate the feeling..

Got to go on site meeting in the morning...lucky very near to my place... another big project again...

Finally reach office before noon....lunch... back to work again...

And i got some news...i apply for a short term attachment oversea.. got the answer today. Will get to go Hong Kong...not bad huh..

Actually right now, i am really not feeling good..took some medication from the last doctor visit... sure have a good sleep tonight...

13June...Tuesday

I guess being lazy is human nature..hahaha...it has been weeks since i last update my blog. Chatted with Daniel last nite and he asked me why i stopped? Cos he checked on my site religously...hahaha...no lah...just kidding...

Of course, a lot of thing happened to me from early May to now...well, to summarise.
Kat, my best pal finally moved back home. I missed her indeed. She SMS me while she took her coach home on her very last trip. A sense of lost just suddenly come over me, i weeped... is like empty void in my heart. After all these year, i know is not easy to find a good friend. Through experience..i know... It take fate, trust and understanding.

Recently, a colleague stopped talking to me, totally. And i respect her will and choice. Initially i started to question myself, did i do something wrong? Am i not good enough? I began to question my character...After some talk with other friends. i begin to accept and respect her choice. We still not talking...

I am not changing for anyone.. i simply believe accept a person as what he is...dun try to mold or change a person character... I am what i am ...at this age of coming 35... i am old enough to be myself.

Fran and me with jessie and husband went for a road trip to KL mid May... it was a fun trip...visited kat new house and did some shopping...Trip to KL is always fun.

Job wise. Very happy so far. As my hard work pay off...never been so satify in work..
Finally people see what i am doing.. A good news.... there will be a press release this coming friday. For a big project in 2008. My work will be send to all newspaper and TV....I dun wanna be famous...i just wanna be rich...I guess hard work need to pay off before they recogise u and give u a healthy pay raise huh ...hahaha...

Everything is looking good so far....work, love and family... now i just need another holiday.....hahaha... but i am still broke ....how har????

Sunday Sian...

What a long weekend...labour day holiday...i had quite a good rest.

First of all, Jessie/sandy/wei siong and me had a good fight over the mahjong table..from 4 pm till 2 am yesterday, we had 3 rounds of game, the first two i lose abt $15.00. But lucky at the last game, i won $20 so end up i won $5.00 more..hahaha very fun but very tired. I guess we are not young anymore so staying up late really can kill.

Today, Frans invited me to his colleague's condo for a pot luck thingy. Can swim and sun tan.. but the weather lately is quite moody...so wonder will it rain...really restless, cos back in my mind i know i still have a project on hand that need to complete by this weekend...

Been very faithful to the gym lately, cos i really can see some development below my shirt. The body looks good to me..hahaha...getting older and is my last chance to take care otherwise it may be too late...:P but i still didnt lose much weight, just have a nice tone body now. I hope my waist can cut down a bit more.. the worst thing abt me is, i always have this concept that since i work out i can affort to eat a bit more..so i can never get rid of the tire in the middle session.

Was intro to a young gay couple website lately, is quite funny to read about their life. i guess i had passed their age. Me and frans are not that loving...hahaha we dun really said it out.. maybe we are more friend than couple now..who knows.. Like what monica told me, we are just lonely that is why we hold on to each other..

I guess living in a city.. as gay man...closet one..is not so easy...i find it hard , as i still mind how people look at me. Although i work hard at work but i believe the conservative society still care. Working with gay people...although i know in our creative line, there are many PLU but i really dun wanna risk.

Kat is moving back home. She is such a dear friend, i can talk to her about my problem and stuffs. Now moving away from singapore, it may be hard to really call and chat.. I sincerely wish her good luck back home and be a happy house wife to be..hahaha..

Sat, my resting day-April22

Time really pass fast...maybe i am getting older now..started to like those songs that i dislike in the past. hahaha..yeah so funny, right? I really like music whenever i passby a music store, i will just go in and walk one round, i dun buy as many CD as before. very selective nowadays... was jalan jalan at a pasan manan last nite. As u know they always have a CD store selling cheap CDs. They were playing Chen bai Qiang on air. Dun really like him, but his (only love u) really sounds good to me then....i am old now..

SG, Tang, Mar and Woof are working their ass off on this sat ....now...saw them on MSN...they are good people and i respect them... SG once told me i over-work for the company, cos i work over few weekends in a row...but situation put me in a position that i had no choice but to stay back...anyway, everyone is unhappy...

The system or the way this comapny work is a bit weird. Just that the unhappiness grow deeper and deeper..sooner or later all the good people wanna leave, but there is no cure to it.. is so weird how these changes develop...I am part of the group.
Maybe cos i am a bit careless and living in my own world...i am better off, cos i only get hurt if i know too much..the problem with me is i dun think far..i just be happy with what i am doing in that moment. and hope everyone around me are happy.

So, how should i spend my weekend....bake roti? or go gym? Life is boring in singapore...help help..

My DNA report

My Personal Dna Report

Above is an Online test that i take few days back...quite interesting...

Anyway, we had a long weekend this week...been restless....cos need to go back office to finish up my project. Finally done at abt 3pm just now. Back home, restless...dunno what to do...

Attended Angela wedding, an expensive and up class wedding. My pocket had a big hole now...knowing that i will never have one in my life time...

Meeting fran later for movie...restless...oh maybe should go hiking again!!!

Ha, we went hiking on good friday, early morning at 11am....well...half way it rain....really heavy and thunder roar !!! well, i enjoy the rain and the hike...
it smoothe my stressful mind and take away my worry...sometime, getting away break all stress..

April Rest

Been a long long long time since i last update my blog. I believe my friends out there thought i am dead...anyway i am still kicking and alive.

Ok, let me update what happened lately in my happy life in the "shit hole".

Honestly, One had to be happy in his job. To stay happy is an art. Working in big organization and working with people is not an easy task. I find that i am more and more ..well i can only say plastic. I always joke about becoming a tupperware. anyway job is always there, even if u die one day the company wont wind up cos u are dead.

i was very busy last few weeks, been workin on a project for almost 3 to 4 weekend..I was tired, mentally....after some rest i am feeling better now. I learned a lesson from here... U will enjoy your work if u put your heart into it but hey dun do it blindly... at least have to be appreciated.. My boss was blind... he never realised that i was workin over few weekend and i am tired... end up he said...he dun know cos i didnt voice out and tell him... do i need to be vocal?? to be loud ...??

I really learn a lot in the shit hole...i believe i changed my way...from treating people to thinking way ahead...although i am not as good as some girls...the things is i hate to be the one left behind not knowing things around me... Is a sad way of looking at life...I am not an actor nor a star. why i need to act and not be myself.

I guess i had my happy days when i was a freelancer few years back...and now i am fallen angel into this shit hole...

Let's pray for me not be a prey in this shit hole to those ugly politic....

Sat-Jan21

One more week to Chinese New Year... busy busy busy. With office work and also home. Today they are coming to install a kitchen sliding door...cos my mom is a super oily chef! Everytime when she cook, goodness, the whole house will be full of smoke...
So no choice have to spend money on the partition.

A new year ... i hope everything will be on a right track. I am so hopeless in life. Guess i am not brave enough. Once u shown weakess, people will try to take advantage of u. I am tired.. Am i not good enough?

I believe i did my best in my job. But something just not right...maybe i am just too senitive.. Sometime i just wonder how long i will live before i really rest.

Better dont think too much...must stay positive.. God, give me strenght to carry on..

Have a good weekend..

Tuesday-Jan10

Another raining day.....rain rain rain....

Been a bit restless lately, maybe due to too many holiday?? of course i am not complaining it.. just that i find it hard to go back to work... See...Chinese new year end of the month, from Jan29 to Jan31. Eat and eat, sure grow fat!!

Was at work yesterday and my collegue show me in her pc, the photographs that she took in Ministry of Sound ( a new night spot in town that open just last month )..
We went there after our D&D.

Is really fun with a group of colleagues.We drank, drunk, dance, play games....some puke like me, some fall, some strip like me, some cry, some enjoy like me...haha...what a night. I manage to reach home by 430am. Goodness, is not easy to drive when u drank so much .... lucky nothing happened.

I truely enjoy that night of fun and god, i am blessed with fun and caring friends around me. Thank you...

Been raining this week... so can only stay home play game or read.. find that there is so much thing can be done...just lack of time.

Jan09-Monday

Been 2 weeks since i last update my blog. So what have i been up to?? Well, festive seasons so a good reason to eat and have fun. Reality soon settle in... how much weight i gain..hmmm, i dunno...guess the machine at home is not that functioning...anyway, so much fun that night after the D&D, last friday.

The theme for this year Dinner and Dance is around the world, and our table we dress up as a cow-boy. It suits me as i am tall and handsome..:P and the BEST thing is i was also being pull up to that stage for some dance thing with the 2 PRETTY dancers!!
I will never forget that night...

I even win in the lucky-draw. number 19....so far away huh...A package to a photo studio for family photo taking. I was actually a bit disppointed then but come to think about it, my family never took any studio shoot before and i will never come up with this idea. So in a way, maybe is a blessing.

Will write more when i am in office....now i am late for work..

MerryChristmas,Sunday- Dec25

Is a sunday morning, christmas day morning. No snow, no bell, no money...

Well, in life what do u want? I just wish to be happy. Happy at work, happy in love, happy with friends, happy with no worries. I think that is not easy to achieve... Why? Because living in singapore is expensive, i got to pay this, pay that. I can said that my bonus already 100% gone....cos everything goes to pay the bill..... when can i start saving? save me and my old age... Maybe i ask for too much, end up this is the price that i had to pay. All i am askin is to have a comforable life, maybe i am just too materialistic, huh? I should control!!

Life have been good lately, i must say. Especially after i started my meditation, feels good. I hope to achieve a better life, a more creative mind and a more rewarding self development.

What year 2006 install for me? i wish for world peace.

Merry Christmas to all that are reading this....I love you.

Wed-Dec14

Came Back from KL yesterday. Been a good rest, we usually start our day at 9am, with breakfast in the hotel then shop till 3pm. Back to hotel for a nap. after a good rest we will then start shopping again...:) Although we walked a lot but i guess we control our money quite well.... end up i only bought few t shirt and dvds.

I truely enjoy the shopping a lot, i wish i can go again next year. Is fun to drive up and take a short break.

Will be on leave today and tomorrow. Will be back to office on friday, for gift exchange. :) fun fun fun...

May go for meditation lesson later in the evening. will see how it goes ....

Sat-Dec17

We are leaving for KL tomorrow, Sunday morning.We will be there till Tuesday, a short break. Staying at our favourite hotel, the Istana. Life suddenly move slow for me...maybe lately my job was on a fast lane and now on leave...everything seems slow down...Feels also very restless.

Will be back to office on Dec23 for the gift ex-change. Everyone is in holiday mood.
Wish i am in Grand Junction. If u wanna know where that is. Go yahoo and search for it. hahaha...

Verner, Merry Christmas and i will save up enough to visit u next christmas!

Relax Sunday- Dec11

I had a very stress work days last week...never been that bad before. Everything is in a stressful situation and people watching over me.I am truely glad that all turn out well and i am on safe ground. The last few days has been a passing phase.... can't think of much thing. My mind is telling me to rest and relax... end up i went for a movie with Fran. Aero Flux...not bad a movie and is very stylishly done. Reading in Border after the movie..i know i am insane to keep lookin for books on spirtual or tarot..hahaha... anyway is some good reading material...

Sunday, a very slow day... i think i am lazy in natural....cos i basically do nothing the whole day... hahaha

Making plan for christmas...dunno where to go...so sian...

Happy Weekend- Nov27

Finally come to weekend..Really looking forward to this day as I had booked a musical several weeks ago and today, 26nov is the day. It was also intentionaly Fran birthday gift. It rained very heavily in the morning when i am picking Fran up from his office. Luckily nothing happened..cos i almost knock into a lamp pole.

RENT, about the lives and loves of a group of struggling young artist, gay, lesb and straight. I love the music and the act since I watched many years ago. Karan act and sing well in the show and I am glad that I catched this ...

After the show, was about evening time... Decided to go funan for dinner...The objective is really to go to somewhere nearby to take aura photo...Indeed a unique and special moment for me. As u can see I am in light of orange/yellow..
and the explanation is so me...:) I am glad that it did not show the ugly me as the light is all over me..hahaha... They also include a quite detail explaination of the light zone and its meaning.. The picture is not ex and cost a merely $10, i strongly encourage whoever into discovering themselve, go and get one soon...



It tells that on the rightside(expression...The color that I putting out to the world...) My color is green/yellow: the world sees me as cheerful, happy and confident. Yellow is the color of sunshine, warmth and intellectual capability, while green is the color of healing, self confident and discipline. Ochre, a blending of these two colors show that i am an optimistic, practical and thoughtful attitude. I may often find myself in the center of attention or in a leadership role...( I know that i am a happy man, only under certain situation that will put me down. It sounds quite true and accurate )

On the center(experience...The color that seen over my head now...The color that best describe me, or what I wish to be)...M color is orange: I can't help expressing myself creatively! I am an artist at heart and march to the beat of different drummer. Right now I am feeling powerful I have the energy, enthusiasm, confident and will to accomplish anything that I desire. Orange is also the color of originality and independence....( I know that there is a change in me lately, maybe due to the change of role and team in the office, the whole me feels different. I am in a more relax position. I am still trying to adjust myself to the whole situation)

On the Left side(future...The color or vibration coming into my being)...My color is Golden orange: my future is bound to be thought provoking as well as highly creative. Activity generating energy is coming into my field. This shade of golden orange is a mixture of active red and intellectual yellow. In this position of my auric field indicates that a very creative and intellectually stimulating future lies in store for me. Inspired ideas are already unfolding within me. I also can enjoy life as I wish...( I truely believe something is going to happen, cos i have call up for a lesson of healing workshop. It is something new and exciting to me. Next sunday is the day and i really looking forward to it, I am sure there is a big change coming)

On the throat(Communication...Is traditionally the energy being expressed)...My color is Golden orange: I can't help expressing myself joyfully and creatively. Happiness, excitement and humor is what I most desire in my life. I spread sunshine wherever I go. My voice is my instrument. I may enjoy singing, acting, telling jokes and stories or just chatting with friends... People find me a pleasurable, lively and entertaining companion. I am warm, outgoing and sociable.( This i have to admit, I like to share my happiness and small talk to whoever knows me..Oveall i hope i am a fun guy that people like to hang around with)

On the heart(Empathy...The vibration coming into my being)...My color is green/yellow: what I desired in life is to heal and nuture others with my humor and optimistic. I am fun-loving and carefree yet I feel a responsibility and desire to counsel and help people with their problems and challenges. I have deep insight and empathy into what others are experiencing, but I have the unique ability to remain centered and amused when all else is falling into chaos around me. My humor is often my strength and saving grace.( Well, maybe because of where i am now, a senior in the company, i really need to look after some junior colleague. In my heart i feels that we are all adult, we should know the limits to the fun and should concentrate in job when the time call)

On the Solar Plexis( normally the center vibration of my being, associated with power, money...It is also the center of self esteem and ego)... My color is yellow: Like the rising sun, yellow brings forth warmth and light. Yellow are representative of the intellect. Each shade or tint of yellow expresses a type of function, ability or expression of the intellect. I am filled with a sense of excitement and joy. I probably feel happy and confident as I discovered my life's work. I have the confident to accomplish anything I desire to do. I laugh easily and are amused by life.( well i do enjoy my job to an extend, So far i am happy there. Now with most of my debt clear, i am happy to be able to enjoy it more without thinking too much on how much more money that i need to folk out)

Should I leave out the color for sex..heehee that a bit too personal mann...Hahaha...Anyway the color is GOLDEN ORANGE...Also means for friendship, socializing, having fun and being myself are what I wish to focus on now. I make my work and chores a pleasure and strive to enjoy every moment. I have a great sense of humor and laugh easily. My life is a fun and creative project. I am also able to relate to others in a warm, open and friendly way. ( yeah, i am enjoying my life now. At this age of mine, i dont wanna lead a boring and restless life. That is why i go gym, roller brading and now my passion is find out more abt the spiritual me)

On the root( traditionally the energy of the physical plane and material reality)..
My color is yellow: Fun is what I am concentrate on now. No matter what I am doing, it needs to be an enjoyable experience. I may be successful in my business if it is fun and creative for me. The world sees me as cheerful, happy, playful, carefree and lucky. Yellow is the color of sunshine and warmth.. My personality is definitely outgoing and optimistic. I may often find myself the center of attention, others see me as radiant and self-expressive.( Well, guess that i am a born designer huh hahaha. Not born to be rich, that means)

OK...The last is the summary...My overall( Summarizes the color intensities of the various elements of my aura(chakras) and the overall condition of my being: My color is GOLD.... In the near future I will have the opportunities to be an inspiration to many people. I glow with a beautiful inner light that people instantly recognize and respond to. I am full of hope, inspiration, utopian ideals and zeal. I easily inspire others with my optimism and excitement with new ideas. I have quick, curious mind always happy and hungry for new learning. I am happy to be what I am and I feel confident to accomplish anything that I want. ( A inspiration to many people?? wow what a big role and i dun think i am such a person, I means my character wasnt that out spoken...will see how it leads me to...True that i like to learn new things, but how long the passion will last? i dunno..i was also known to only have 3mins passion type of guy....hahaha...)

wow ....God...This is the longest blog I ever write hahaha...Indeed it is an experience or lesson learned from the aura photo, it teach me and tell me who I am..
for friends who knows me...This is me...

Tired Sunday- Nov20

That was 15 days, two weeks ago since i last update my blog.... guess i am too lazy nowadays.....had a terrible flu last few day..finally got some rest and feels much better now...

It was a horrify night last night...went to bed at 110am and woke up from my short term dream....open up my big black eyes...into the dark, i think i saw something...
trying to figure out what the F is that...and it seems clearer to me that is a face of a girl....end up i scream so loud and on and on.. never been so extreme in my life.. my brother and mom who are in the living room thought the scream was from the TV..hahaha...but hell that really scare the hell out of me... i dare not close my eyes... in the dark... in my open and empty mind ....i waited..time just stood still.. finally i on my bedside lamp... feels so awake...( remember i took the flu medication earlier before i go to bed..) decided to read and keep myself busy and ....i only manage to sleep at 4am...wake up again at 5:59am..thinking to myself..soon the sun will be out...

I wake up with a very tired mind and god.... so so sleepy.... anyway i am ok now..i will light up my candle now before i go to sleep so that at least i wont wake up in the pitch dark room...

Time to sleep now... and tomorrow is another new day...

Birdie day- Nov05

Today is my family day.... bird park... didnt been there for years... and still the same old bird... to me, zoo is still my favourite... more things to see...looking at colorful bird dun do anything to me.. sian..

Went to IMM after the birdpark... finally booked a set of plasma and home theatre system...something that i had been eyeing for quite awhile... I know Fran won't be happy about it cos i didn't plan it well.... He is a more pratical person and i am more impulsive...when i wanna something i will want it badly !!! Yes...that is me..

Will install on Tuesday...hmmm imagine a 42" tv on my living room wall..that really excite me now...hehehe... and able to watch action movie on it....with the sound effect ....i guess i may not visit cinema for awhile now...

I told my mom just now... that i am the sort that enjoy life at its moment..i know i know is bad in a way.... But now with most of my debt clear..i would wanna buy myself something to cheer myself up..hehehe...

Tomorrow...sunday...planning to go gym and back to office for some work... otherwise i will have a hard time on monday...

Verner, i am ok now...dun worry..when is your sg trip?? looking forward to see u soon..

Wes thanks for being such a dear friend to me.....

Fran, wat can i say.... love you...

Sunday-Oct30

Went to East Coast for roller blading yesterday, was a bit worry as this is my first blade after my backaches recover. No pain, no fall...is a enjoyable time and i truely love it. Went for a movie( the 40 years old virgin )...trying to be funny yet didnt strike me that much, unlike KungFu hustler which really give me a good laugh.

Coming week will be a easy week. As next Tuesday and Thurday is public holiday so we jus need to work 1, 3 and 5.... hmmm and can work rest work rest... didnt plan much..
just live the day by day...

Live life like the last day of my life...-Oct29

Sat, the day that i can sleep late... been feeling tired and ache over the last few days since visited Liu ShiFu...He is good, i must say....my pain had really improve a lot!!! and i am glad that i am ok now...

Friday, yesterday....what a day...interview with my boss, and got my appraisal signed.. was surprise how he look at me...anyway is a good thing even through i am not sure is that sincere...

Happy hour.... company holding a 9 course dinner after work to celebrate a success of an event that was held not long ago...lucky draw...ME!!! got a pair of concert ticket to Teresa teng musical tribute...not my cup of tea..most likely will give it to Fran's parent..

During dinner, my big boss came over and wanna me to go japan next week for a show..
a oversea trip, some where that i never go before.. not really keen to go either... just not in the right mood.... will see how...

Planning to go roller blading this afternoon...going to pick Fran later..got a vase from one of my colleague... so tempted to get some fresh flower... i guess all happy people like flower...hahaha...

I am silly, always do stupid and silly stuffs.... I am really glad to have friends like Wes, Kat and SG. They help and look out for me a lot.... Sounds silly... at the age 34 i am still metally simple...well, that is me...

The Best Joke of the day-Oct25

The Best joke of the day....

one of my aunts said: so son now you are 35 why don't you get married??
one of my cousins replied: you are 65 why don't you die??
The aunt nearly had a heart attack..
some aunts can irritate the shit yout of your arse...

Crazy day, Crazy me-Oct24

I must say, life treated me well...surrounded with good friends, family and good sex.
hahaha... Wes, thanks again for the frightening phone call, i will remind myself not to make the same mistake again and Kat for giving me good advise on how to handle things.

The problem with me is... i dun think too much..to concern about other's problem which i can joyly well give it a miss...must learn to reject! Yeah you Mxther Fxxker Fxxk Oxx...hehhehe...

Been amost a week since i last update...yes i am lazy and lazy... what else can i say....been lazy about work...about love...about life...

The wonder feeling of that spiritual stuff has over..and now i am in this cruel happy world...sign....struggling to make a living.... been calaculating my saving and expenses lately...goodness really can't live without a full time job...everything is expensive in singapore and i am a BIG spender...

Went to Habour front with Fran to look see at big sales on tv...been wanting to get one tv for my living room. Is really crowded out there.... and i have a real tight budget...and realise that 42" plasma is super big in my that tiny small living room..
so make up my mind to zoom down to a 32" LCD...so scan through the whole store...found ONE! make in singapore...hmmm....would i want to get a LCD tv, a singapore brand at $1800 or get a jap brand that cost almost double....ma de.. end up i decided to wait till christmas for price to drop further and save up more money.
Think too much end up buy nothing and spend all the money away... hahaha...

Eugene came over...he is really a good pal... lot of jokes and stories to share.. i feels good with him. He has been very helpful to me in life and also in saving cost for my house reno! I must said that my house reno is basic and yet is cosy and please to lay man eyes.... i like the earth tone finishing. easy feeling,relax and casual... I did my basic when i moved in one year ago and now thought of doing a sliding door to kitchen, a shoe rack, and also one of my bedroom cabinet. After that my house will be fully done up... And i will live happily ever after...alone?

Boring Tuesday-Oct18

Another boring Tuesday again!!! hahaha....work was slow, so everything is in slow motion..and need to act hard working also...sian..I will be on leave coming thursday to next tuesday..so can have a real good rest...

Will also do a detoxing coming sunday to tues... three days...read can lose at lease 3 kg...hehee must look charming at this old age!!!

Nov is coming and 2 months later 2005 will be over ....really looking forward to it.
Life will be beautiful ....

Bought a pair of ticket to the musical RENT....really expensive to me but is a birthday gift to fran... I really love Rent..watched once and i simply love it!!

:)

Meditation-Oct12

Followed my cousin to the reading...been quite into these stuffs lately..the lady taught me a method of meditation....

First, sit on a chair both hand on lap...relax and close your eyes....deep breath and let out the air slowly...feel the air in your middle of stomach.....and also need to imagine there is roots growing into the ground.... thus it will tie you to earth. do it for 2 mins and slowly increase to 3 mins...max at 5 mins...

It says to help in concentration and also focus in whatever we do in our daily live.

Life can be so un-predicable huh....or life can be just a box of chocolate...and that will makes u FAT! hahaha...

To me, life can be hard but since we already make it so far, just might as well live it to the fullest and be a happy man....have a good heart, think no evil...i know is hard sometime...we are still human....whatever it is just be a good human in this earth...cheers..

Boring Tuesday-Oct11

Few days didnt update my blog...got a complain from my fan...hahaha...my dear colleague..the one that we had a lot in common, one who had upset stomach after the ma la steamboat, one who lead me to the awakening...hahaha...Wes..thanks for being a friend...

Office is going for a re-structuring coming Nov. I bet there will be a great change in term of working relationship with the old colleagues... We had great fun together and i sure miss working with them...

Still having the after effect from the reading....i even went for a meditation lesson last night...for my character i will do anything once!! just to experience and know what is all about.... anyway, the experience was quite "magical" I can feels wave on both my palm and can see changing color when i close my eyes.... Nice and smoothing color....I truely believe that the meditation really work...and with the control of energy, i bet it really have some un-natural force within...But i dont think i will dive into it as i really over spend this month and god will knows..

I better control and hope money drop from sky soon...

Some people was afraid of seeing things...some don't, like me.....as what they said, when i am ready...i will see it...talked to my colleague today...she told me about her dream which is so real that scare her....

She dream that she woke up and saw herself sleeping there....then saw a lady (shadow) at the corner of her room...afraid then she ran out to the living room...saw an old maid sitting there...even saw her room-mate came out of their room, to wash up and left for work... she then went back to her room and sleep into her own body....

Weird dream huh...to her everything is so real and that scare her out...
She is a funny and interesting character....

:)

The Gifted one-Oct08

I went to my tarot reading and realised a lot of things that is new and unknown to me...Well, total 2 tarot reading...cos the first one intro me to the second one for further explaination...

Both of them tell me, they can only see male figure in my life and i have lot of yang in me...that means i am gay !!!! He can see a man in me, a strong yang!! and he can tell i am born to be gay as i choose it, cos i had problem with female in my past life...

I am also a gifted one as i had the "third eyes"... the ability to see things...and that really interest me in certain way....Will you choose to open up your third eye?
how to deal with those that hang around...hmmm....errie but interesting huh ...

She recommended some books for me to open up my world and he wanna me to learn more about my past life...what a day...too overwhelming and tired...

I need time to think about it...i am truely tired now....

On Leave Again-Oct7

October, must be a very non productive month for me, cos i seems to be on leave and MC every now and then...What to do...i really not feeling well and i need to clear my leave before end of oct otherwise our intra-system will "eat away" my leave...I still have 3 more days to clear....hmmm...maybe i am too hard working during the year otherwise why so many leave unclear huh.....hehehe..

Last night finally told blackie, that i wanna go on leave today...so sian nothing much to do, just helping my colleague to do her revisions..3 revisions!!! Is not like i dun wanna to do just that my back still not that recover and is a chore to really work...and also i simply no mood to think too much.. I know Margaret was under stress...to me we are all adult, we should know how to handle stress...i had been under a lot of stress too..... Remember long long ago ..feb this year...

I was working on one mega project..constantly under the eyes of blackie..i was not confident then and once he even paste my drawing with lots of ugly remark all over it, over my monitor...the next morning, whoever past by my desk saw my drawing...came to me and say sorry to me...sigh...hey, maybe i should scan that drawing and paste it here, then u all will have a good laugh..hahaha

I had been there...just take it easy and tackle one problem at one time.. What to do, life have to carry on...

After end of the year 2005, i will be more relief...cos i will finally pay off my renovation loan...Eugene, my dear friend and he did my house..beautifully!! help me in many ways to make all these possible...that means i will be a bit richer and can have some saving on hand...NOW I AM REAL BROKE!!!

I bought my China Colleague Liu to little india last night....show him the infamous desker road... had indian food for dinner and shop at Mustafar... Actually what can u really do in singapore....???? I am so bore sometime....fran and me can be very boring couple...we dun club, eat at hawker...only thing is we drive and can go all over singapore for nice food...

I miss our Malaysia trip..we used to drive all the way to KL and malacca...and i had so much fun...maybe i can talk about that another day huh...:)

Good day...

Getting Better-Oct5

I am getting better....yes...it feels so so good to be able to move..
Now is only a slight pain on my right leg.... Glad to be normal again...

I am really looking forward to my weekend... can be with my darling again..
I keep teasing him about the wooden door... I hope he remember this lesson..

Back to Work-Oct4

Yes...i m back to work..after a long rest..was still feeling pain in the morning.
But at the end of the work day...mann!...my back has recover a lot...not that pain anymore and the right foot pain had also gone away... Now i am feeling much much better...

Anyway, i had decided to cancel our trip in Nov...cos i had already spend $200 plus on my chinese ShiFu...so maybe is wise to do that since i am not totally recover.

What a day...i am happy and hope the pain will go away soon...

Pain, pain go away-Oct3

I am still in pain..gone to the doc yesterday and she said i may have a mild slip disc.. it affects my right leg, every step i am in pain..Now i understand how others felt when they had slip disc..u really will give whatever u have for the relief..

Another day on MC ( medical leave )..... lying in bed for almost the whole morning, restless. Doc advise not to sit up too long need lot of rest.. I guess the only thing i can do is surf the net but damn i cant sit up too long...

Forgive and Forget-Oct2

Is midnight...tired...why?? sigh... i dunno should write it down...or...

Can you forgive your lover if he/she cheated on u.. If u forgive, will you forget?
Now i am facing situation like this...

Found sexy sms on his hp...both personal and office. What else will you do..
i know i am bad but i already suspected when a sms beep in the afternoon..."miss you and wanna meet u again etc"... Fuck...then after we came back from east coast...while he is showering...i checked his hp...goodness....different people...
different sexy message..i dunno how i should react...

He hold me and say he didnt do anything behind me...i kept quiet and he keep !#@%$#
...i demanded to check the other HP sms...my gosh!!! even more !!! even got a married one!!!

I know is hard to maintain a relationship...2 yrs is not easy...especially we are happy man..should i carry on ...and if i do...will i forgive and forget?? Will he repeat history again?? He is still young and active .... should i let him go...

My back aches again...i will go back to Liu Shi Fu again tomorrow...he is good and i am sure there will be a better tomorrow...

I still love him....