Sunday-Oct30

Went to East Coast for roller blading yesterday, was a bit worry as this is my first blade after my backaches recover. No pain, no fall...is a enjoyable time and i truely love it. Went for a movie( the 40 years old virgin )...trying to be funny yet didnt strike me that much, unlike KungFu hustler which really give me a good laugh.

Coming week will be a easy week. As next Tuesday and Thurday is public holiday so we jus need to work 1, 3 and 5.... hmmm and can work rest work rest... didnt plan much..
just live the day by day...

Live life like the last day of my life...-Oct29

Sat, the day that i can sleep late... been feeling tired and ache over the last few days since visited Liu ShiFu...He is good, i must say....my pain had really improve a lot!!! and i am glad that i am ok now...

Friday, yesterday....what a day...interview with my boss, and got my appraisal signed.. was surprise how he look at me...anyway is a good thing even through i am not sure is that sincere...

Happy hour.... company holding a 9 course dinner after work to celebrate a success of an event that was held not long ago...lucky draw...ME!!! got a pair of concert ticket to Teresa teng musical tribute...not my cup of tea..most likely will give it to Fran's parent..

During dinner, my big boss came over and wanna me to go japan next week for a show..
a oversea trip, some where that i never go before.. not really keen to go either... just not in the right mood.... will see how...

Planning to go roller blading this afternoon...going to pick Fran later..got a vase from one of my colleague... so tempted to get some fresh flower... i guess all happy people like flower...hahaha...

I am silly, always do stupid and silly stuffs.... I am really glad to have friends like Wes, Kat and SG. They help and look out for me a lot.... Sounds silly... at the age 34 i am still metally simple...well, that is me...

The Best Joke of the day-Oct25

The Best joke of the day....

one of my aunts said: so son now you are 35 why don't you get married??
one of my cousins replied: you are 65 why don't you die??
The aunt nearly had a heart attack..
some aunts can irritate the shit yout of your arse...

Crazy day, Crazy me-Oct24

I must say, life treated me well...surrounded with good friends, family and good sex.
hahaha... Wes, thanks again for the frightening phone call, i will remind myself not to make the same mistake again and Kat for giving me good advise on how to handle things.

The problem with me is... i dun think too much..to concern about other's problem which i can joyly well give it a miss...must learn to reject! Yeah you Mxther Fxxker Fxxk Oxx...hehhehe...

Been amost a week since i last update...yes i am lazy and lazy... what else can i say....been lazy about work...about love...about life...

The wonder feeling of that spiritual stuff has over..and now i am in this cruel happy world...sign....struggling to make a living.... been calaculating my saving and expenses lately...goodness really can't live without a full time job...everything is expensive in singapore and i am a BIG spender...

Went to Habour front with Fran to look see at big sales on tv...been wanting to get one tv for my living room. Is really crowded out there.... and i have a real tight budget...and realise that 42" plasma is super big in my that tiny small living room..
so make up my mind to zoom down to a 32" LCD...so scan through the whole store...found ONE! make in singapore...hmmm....would i want to get a LCD tv, a singapore brand at $1800 or get a jap brand that cost almost double....ma de.. end up i decided to wait till christmas for price to drop further and save up more money.
Think too much end up buy nothing and spend all the money away... hahaha...

Eugene came over...he is really a good pal... lot of jokes and stories to share.. i feels good with him. He has been very helpful to me in life and also in saving cost for my house reno! I must said that my house reno is basic and yet is cosy and please to lay man eyes.... i like the earth tone finishing. easy feeling,relax and casual... I did my basic when i moved in one year ago and now thought of doing a sliding door to kitchen, a shoe rack, and also one of my bedroom cabinet. After that my house will be fully done up... And i will live happily ever after...alone?

Boring Tuesday-Oct18

Another boring Tuesday again!!! hahaha....work was slow, so everything is in slow motion..and need to act hard working also...sian..I will be on leave coming thursday to next tuesday..so can have a real good rest...

Will also do a detoxing coming sunday to tues... three days...read can lose at lease 3 kg...hehee must look charming at this old age!!!

Nov is coming and 2 months later 2005 will be over ....really looking forward to it.
Life will be beautiful ....

Bought a pair of ticket to the musical RENT....really expensive to me but is a birthday gift to fran... I really love Rent..watched once and i simply love it!!

:)

Meditation-Oct12

Followed my cousin to the reading...been quite into these stuffs lately..the lady taught me a method of meditation....

First, sit on a chair both hand on lap...relax and close your eyes....deep breath and let out the air slowly...feel the air in your middle of stomach.....and also need to imagine there is roots growing into the ground.... thus it will tie you to earth. do it for 2 mins and slowly increase to 3 mins...max at 5 mins...

It says to help in concentration and also focus in whatever we do in our daily live.

Life can be so un-predicable huh....or life can be just a box of chocolate...and that will makes u FAT! hahaha...

To me, life can be hard but since we already make it so far, just might as well live it to the fullest and be a happy man....have a good heart, think no evil...i know is hard sometime...we are still human....whatever it is just be a good human in this earth...cheers..

Boring Tuesday-Oct11

Few days didnt update my blog...got a complain from my fan...hahaha...my dear colleague..the one that we had a lot in common, one who had upset stomach after the ma la steamboat, one who lead me to the awakening...hahaha...Wes..thanks for being a friend...

Office is going for a re-structuring coming Nov. I bet there will be a great change in term of working relationship with the old colleagues... We had great fun together and i sure miss working with them...

Still having the after effect from the reading....i even went for a meditation lesson last night...for my character i will do anything once!! just to experience and know what is all about.... anyway, the experience was quite "magical" I can feels wave on both my palm and can see changing color when i close my eyes.... Nice and smoothing color....I truely believe that the meditation really work...and with the control of energy, i bet it really have some un-natural force within...But i dont think i will dive into it as i really over spend this month and god will knows..

I better control and hope money drop from sky soon...

Some people was afraid of seeing things...some don't, like me.....as what they said, when i am ready...i will see it...talked to my colleague today...she told me about her dream which is so real that scare her....

She dream that she woke up and saw herself sleeping there....then saw a lady (shadow) at the corner of her room...afraid then she ran out to the living room...saw an old maid sitting there...even saw her room-mate came out of their room, to wash up and left for work... she then went back to her room and sleep into her own body....

Weird dream huh...to her everything is so real and that scare her out...
She is a funny and interesting character....

:)

The Gifted one-Oct08

I went to my tarot reading and realised a lot of things that is new and unknown to me...Well, total 2 tarot reading...cos the first one intro me to the second one for further explaination...

Both of them tell me, they can only see male figure in my life and i have lot of yang in me...that means i am gay !!!! He can see a man in me, a strong yang!! and he can tell i am born to be gay as i choose it, cos i had problem with female in my past life...

I am also a gifted one as i had the "third eyes"... the ability to see things...and that really interest me in certain way....Will you choose to open up your third eye?
how to deal with those that hang around...hmmm....errie but interesting huh ...

She recommended some books for me to open up my world and he wanna me to learn more about my past life...what a day...too overwhelming and tired...

I need time to think about it...i am truely tired now....

On Leave Again-Oct7

October, must be a very non productive month for me, cos i seems to be on leave and MC every now and then...What to do...i really not feeling well and i need to clear my leave before end of oct otherwise our intra-system will "eat away" my leave...I still have 3 more days to clear....hmmm...maybe i am too hard working during the year otherwise why so many leave unclear huh.....hehehe..

Last night finally told blackie, that i wanna go on leave today...so sian nothing much to do, just helping my colleague to do her revisions..3 revisions!!! Is not like i dun wanna to do just that my back still not that recover and is a chore to really work...and also i simply no mood to think too much.. I know Margaret was under stress...to me we are all adult, we should know how to handle stress...i had been under a lot of stress too..... Remember long long ago ..feb this year...

I was working on one mega project..constantly under the eyes of blackie..i was not confident then and once he even paste my drawing with lots of ugly remark all over it, over my monitor...the next morning, whoever past by my desk saw my drawing...came to me and say sorry to me...sigh...hey, maybe i should scan that drawing and paste it here, then u all will have a good laugh..hahaha

I had been there...just take it easy and tackle one problem at one time.. What to do, life have to carry on...

After end of the year 2005, i will be more relief...cos i will finally pay off my renovation loan...Eugene, my dear friend and he did my house..beautifully!! help me in many ways to make all these possible...that means i will be a bit richer and can have some saving on hand...NOW I AM REAL BROKE!!!

I bought my China Colleague Liu to little india last night....show him the infamous desker road... had indian food for dinner and shop at Mustafar... Actually what can u really do in singapore....???? I am so bore sometime....fran and me can be very boring couple...we dun club, eat at hawker...only thing is we drive and can go all over singapore for nice food...

I miss our Malaysia trip..we used to drive all the way to KL and malacca...and i had so much fun...maybe i can talk about that another day huh...:)

Good day...

Getting Better-Oct5

I am getting better....yes...it feels so so good to be able to move..
Now is only a slight pain on my right leg.... Glad to be normal again...

I am really looking forward to my weekend... can be with my darling again..
I keep teasing him about the wooden door... I hope he remember this lesson..

Back to Work-Oct4

Yes...i m back to work..after a long rest..was still feeling pain in the morning.
But at the end of the work day...mann!...my back has recover a lot...not that pain anymore and the right foot pain had also gone away... Now i am feeling much much better...

Anyway, i had decided to cancel our trip in Nov...cos i had already spend $200 plus on my chinese ShiFu...so maybe is wise to do that since i am not totally recover.

What a day...i am happy and hope the pain will go away soon...

Pain, pain go away-Oct3

I am still in pain..gone to the doc yesterday and she said i may have a mild slip disc.. it affects my right leg, every step i am in pain..Now i understand how others felt when they had slip disc..u really will give whatever u have for the relief..

Another day on MC ( medical leave )..... lying in bed for almost the whole morning, restless. Doc advise not to sit up too long need lot of rest.. I guess the only thing i can do is surf the net but damn i cant sit up too long...

Forgive and Forget-Oct2

Is midnight...tired...why?? sigh... i dunno should write it down...or...

Can you forgive your lover if he/she cheated on u.. If u forgive, will you forget?
Now i am facing situation like this...

Found sexy sms on his hp...both personal and office. What else will you do..
i know i am bad but i already suspected when a sms beep in the afternoon..."miss you and wanna meet u again etc"... Fuck...then after we came back from east coast...while he is showering...i checked his hp...goodness....different people...
different sexy message..i dunno how i should react...

He hold me and say he didnt do anything behind me...i kept quiet and he keep !#@%$#
...i demanded to check the other HP sms...my gosh!!! even more !!! even got a married one!!!

I know is hard to maintain a relationship...2 yrs is not easy...especially we are happy man..should i carry on ...and if i do...will i forgive and forget?? Will he repeat history again?? He is still young and active .... should i let him go...

My back aches again...i will go back to Liu Shi Fu again tomorrow...he is good and i am sure there will be a better tomorrow...

I still love him....